Its a bird, Its a plane, no... its BAT!

Yesterday when I threw a newspaper that hit a garage door I saw something black fall to the ground and then I heard the flaps of his wing as he comes flying strait at me! You guessed it. It was a bat! no need to tell you how fast I turned around and ran back to the van!, then ounce safe inside realized that I had to get back outside and porch a newspaper next to the bat house. My heart was beating soo fast!

and then not long after the scary bat moment, I threw a paper and it slid and stopped right under a car. I had to slide underneath on my stomach and retrieve it, to only have the same thing happen again on the next street over. I just hope my aim gets better soon. I don't like sliding underneath peoples cars.

Finally yea..

I wanted a change for my background on here.. I couldn't get this one to work at first, but now success!! anyway I better get to bed. 1 :50 Am comes pretty fast!

Pettiness!!

I cannot stand petty people. I have a gated community on my paper route, and today a man that lives in this gated area came out to my car when I was reaching for his newspaper, only to yell at me and tell me that if I couldn't have the paper make it to his porch than they were going to quit their subscription. These Condo's are so close to the road. They only have 3 steps to get down to the driveway and their driveways are only like 5 feet to their garage. but because of how the railings are on their porch , when I would throw the paper it would usually hit the railing instead of going over. So I was tossing the newspapers so they would land agianst the steps. Seriously he would have only taken 3-5 steps from his front door to reach the paper. how petty can one person be.

All nighter

yesterday they had me throw two paper routes, let me tell ya I was soo tired. But after I was done they told me I could choose between the two routes. I am so thankful for the chance to take the second route for two reasons.

1. more papers.. and you know what that means.. more $ though it does take a little longer, and I get a little more worn out, but its worth it.

2. the second route is mostly homes, compared to the first one which was apartments.
the apartment complexes made me a little nervous because they were not well lit. and you never know what wacko might be out there. ( I have heard many stories already from the other carriers)

since tomorrow is Sunday I have to be there at 1:30 instead of 2:30 and since my body wont let me fall asleep before 9:30 I don't see a point in going to bed tonight and waking up 3 hours later, so I will be pulling an all nighter and then sleeping after my route tomorrow before church..
but don't worry I bought a energy drink just in case!

Its Amazing!!

It is so Amazing all the benefits a job can give you (and I don't mean health insurance..lol) For the last couple of months I have been so depressed, about not being able to get pregnant yet, about our finances, my weight.. Just everything was just wearing down on me.. to the point that I was even scared how depressed I really was. And now it just been two days that I have been working, but already I feel soo much better.. Yes I have to wake up at 2Am everyday but I am done before Cory and Constance wake up for the day. This morning I was done with my paper route at 5:30 I was able to pick up the front room, take Cory to the train station and go grocery shopping and I was done by 9 Am. I am accomplishing so much more in the time that used to be asleep. I love it. and I am also getting some exercise in with my paper route. It is mostly apartment's and so, most the time I am out of the car and running all through the complexes. And to top it all off I also get paid for it yea!!

And I also realized something important the other day, I have known it all along really but because I was so depressed it didn't bring me comfort like it does now. I realized that while I may not be able to have another child for awhile, I am soo glad that I have such a sweet little girl. Constance is truly my best friend. She is more than I can ever hope for, and for that I feel truly blessed.

Crap on a stick day..week..month or even year!

So I dont sound so negative here is some cute pictures of Constance I just got.

My Little girl is not so little anymore...

Today I went shopping to by Constance her first pairs of panties, we have been potty training her for about two weeks and she is doing so well. There has been only a couple of accidents, but then again she was not wearing panties.. I was letting her run around the house with just a T-shirt on. So we will see how she does being a "big Girl" She never tells me when she has to go. I always just hear the music her potty makes as she is going. So I hope she will get in the habbit of telling me when she is actually wearing her big girl panties.

It was funny when we were at Wal-mart getting her panties, I asked cory how he felt buying his little girl her first pair of panties. he was like" Im fine, just dont make me buy her any Tampons"